How do you know what choice to make?

My daughter's CCS (California Children's Services) bi-yearly review was a couple of weeks ago and since then I've been trying to figure out the best choice to make for my daughter, while at the same time realizing I don't have a clue what that choice should be.

At the clinic, the doctor who examined her looked at her knees, which bend the wrong way, and became alarmed. I tried to laugh it off. "Yeah, I know. I try not to look."

"I want you to look," he said without smiling. He then cautioned me that my daughter's knees are in bad shape and she should be wearing braces to support them. "If they continue to bow back, which they will as she gets heavier, she will reach the point where she won't be able to walk at all because they won't support her weight."

I said, "We took the braces off after her surgery because she was complaining of knee pain and the surgeon suggested giving her legs a chance to strengthen. Since we took the braces off, she hasn't complained of pain at all. If her knees are so bad, why isn't she in pain?"

"I don't know," he said. "But in time, she will be."

I looked around the room where seven people, therapists and consultants, sat listening. One of the physical therapists asked about just a knee brace, but the brace expert said that wouldn't help. She needs full, foot to hip, braces on both legs to support her knees. I looked at him, but he wouldn't make eye contact, and then I realized he was angry with me. He used to be friendly and has worked with my daughter since she was three. Now the frustration in his voice told me he thought I had made a bad decision removing the braces.

By the end of the meeting, the room was divided; physical therapists supporting my decision to not use braces right now, and the doctor and CCS staff urging me to consider braces again. The doctor said, "If you want to try therapy for a while, go ahead, but we need to talk about this again in six months." Great. We've got six months to save my daughter's knees.

This isn't the first time I've had to make a choice when the "experts" disagreed. Several years ago she was checked for sleep apnea, which she has. The sleep expert recommended we remove her tonsils to open up the air passage. The Eye, Ear and Nose specialist said her tonsils weren't the problem. Her neurologist agreed, saying it had more to do with her neurological issues. Then another neurologist said it WAS her tonsils. In the end, I decided not to put her through surgery when I wasn't sure it would help. The sleep expert angrily told me I was making a terrible mistake.

Last year, she had surgery on her feet because the bones in them had collapsed and she was walking on her novicular bone. She could hardly walk, even with her walker. One doctor was against the surgery because she might never regain muscle mass after sitting for so long because of her hypotonia. Another doctor thought if we didn't do anything at all, she wouldn't walk regardless. Her feet couldn't' support her weight. She was complaining of pain. That time I chose surgery, risking that she wouldn't recover fully because she was already losing mobility. The risk seemed worth it, and happily, she recovered very well. Except for her knees.

How do you know what choice to make? Who do you ask when the doctors disagree? How long is too long to "wait and see?" Am I hurting my daughter by not putting leg braces back on? Or will I hurt her more if I do? How do I tell my thirteen year old daughter who just recovered from surgery so she could walk, sorry, you're going to have to wear braces again?